Странное состояние. Я долго думал, как его описать, но потом совершенно случайно услышал песенку...
На самом деле, у меня немного не так всё. Но местами очень даже похоже.
Выкладываю текст тут - может, еще кого-то он заинтересует ;-)
Fade to Black (Hetfield, Ulrich, Burton, Hammett) Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone
No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye...
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